The Bond by JM Chase

Author:JM Chase [Chase, JM]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: anonymous
Published: 2022-01-11T05:00:00+00:00

Evan and I talk for over an hour on the phone, and before we hang up, I ask him to keep me updated on his mum.

He leaves with, ‘I still love you, Tiger.’

It’s the second time he has said it, and it hits me hard. Talking with him after our short break makes me realise everything we’ve had together over the last few months. He means a lot to me. I want to be there for him, but in my heart, I want Linc, too. My head feels so clouded. I have never felt this way about two men—wanting both for different reasons.

I tell myself to think about it more seriously. Do Linc and I really have a future? We may have incredible chemistry together, but we’ve never even gone on a date, nor have I been out with him in public at all.

His words promise beautiful things, but does he deliver? I still haven’t even had an orgasm with him. While Evan is not as exciting in a bodice-ripping kind of way, he has made me cum every single time we’ve had sex. Therefore, technically he is quite brilliant.

I’m not sure if I’m thinking straight—I’m tired and slightly intoxicated—but I think I’ve made my decision, and it makes my heart hurt.

I text him before I have time to change my mind. ‘Linc, I’m trying to work things out with the man I’ve been seeing.’

‘Oh, really? How old is this guy?’

‘Two years younger. I met him through work,’ which is essentially true. ‘Why does his age matter?’

‘Because age is the only reason you’ve ever given me as to why you reject me.’

‘That isn’t the only reason, Linc.’

‘Then why?!’

‘I love the things that you love, and I am definitely on the same page sexually, but I like to feel special. I like a man to at least date me first. You haven’t done that. It’s always and only been sex.’

‘I wish we had dated.’

‘If you had wanted to take me out on a date, you would have already.’

‘Oh God, Harper, you frustrate me! But I’ll never not want you.’

‘You are full of beautiful words that lead nowhere, Linc!’ I feel worn down, torn.

‘You’re doing the same thing as you have done before,’ he argues.

‘No. That is not true.’

‘That is what it feels like right now. Are you free this evening?’

‘No, I am not free for a hook-up.’

‘That’s not what I meant, and you know it.’

‘That’s all it ever is with you. I need more.’

‘You’re pushing me away again.’ He sends me a sad face emoji, ‘You break me.’

‘I’m not pushing you away. I actually care about you.’

‘Harper, listen to me. I care about you, too, and I want to be a part of your life. I want you as a part of mine.’

‘I just don’t know how we fit. The reality is I’m not a part of your life. I’m hidden. I don’t want to categorise you as a friend, but maybe that’s all we can do.’

‘That hurts my feelings. You are, and always will be, more than a friend.

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